My Recent Unhealthy Addictions

I have been going through a weird trend where I watch older flicks with the 'hunks' that are long gone. I have been watching a lot of Marlon Brando because he was a phenomenal actor and he is very attractive. My husband made fun of me because I put a bunch of his movies on hold at the library and walked away with like five of his movies, can we say addiction? I wonder what someone would think if they every went through my library record. I just finished an old horror movie phase that was spurred on by my discovery of Bella Lugosi.

Anyways, my movie watching lately has been themed. By chance I heard about East of Eden in the special features of another movie I watched, yes I am one of those people who can't resist looking at all the special features directly after watching a film. So along with my Marlon Brando flicks I got this James Dean film. Now I had seen Rebel Without A Cause and that was the only James Dean flick I had seen to this point, and I have been missing out. WOW! He is great and there is just something about him that draws you in like a magnet. In this film his is seen as the 'bad boy' (isn't that all of his flicks?) but you soon realize he is projecting that to protect himself from more hurt and disappointment. I won’t ruin it anymore, but I highly recommend it. It is possible that this recommendation is very tainted due to how good looking he is in this movie.

See what I mean!!!

The thing is I am so bummed that he is gone. I am wondering if this is healthy for me to get invested in an actor’s career that has already passed. I mean there is a limited outlet and there is no excitement of anticipation of a new production they are in. Besides this film crush I have started is beyond pathetic, however I know I won’t be lonely!!

What actor, that has passed, do you carry a secret or not so secret crush for?

Leaving Inactivity

I have no idea why I feel compelled to share this with the blog sphere because this has a great potential to be embarrassing for me but none the less I need to free these emotions. For the next 53 days I will be left in limbo. Three hours ago I submitted an application to finish up my undergraduate at Case Western Reserve University, and I am over come with fear. I have always felt a huge inadequacy when it comes to education. I never did very well in school and struggled with Math especially. However, I never study like I should have or proof read my work because I would get so frustrated at my skill level that I would throw a mental fit and give up. Well now the consequences for those choices are coming back. This school has pretty high scholastic expectations, in my opinion, for undergrads and I might not make the cut.

I know that for me finishing my education is of huge importance and has been stressing me out for the last few years. But the bigger stress was what if I didn't make it. What if I wasn't intelligent enough to get my degree, to accomplish all the work required? What if I was just a scholastic failure? This has been a crippling fear for me especially in this application process. I have grown 'comfortable' working in low end jobs with little room for growth and low scholastic requirements.

At my last job there was little if any disparity in my education and those of my superiors for they only had a Bachelors in most cases. At my current job this is not the case. All have received Bachelors, most have Masters and some even have PhD's. The disparity is staggering to me. Their ability to compile professional documents at a drop of a hat, the professional manner in which they handle all written communications has been humbling and intimidating to me.

So now I have jumped off that safe ledge of inactivity into the world of responsibility, and I am not sure how I feel about it.

Must Read

I have a very good friend whom I just love and she wrote a post on her blog that I think is a must read. (Besides she is much more eloquent that I am in expressing this.) Please check it out and comment on your thoughts/feelings back here.

Labor Day - Palmyra

OK here it is FINALLY! I know all three of you were hanging on to your seats get see this pictures so I am finally here to relieve your stress of waiting.

Here is the Smith Farm. This is built on the original foundation, the house isn't original but it is built to scale. It was humbling to see how families use to live. 6 boys in the loft!! I couldn't even imagine, especially in the summer.
This is the Palmyra Temple. It is so beautiful!! I just love how it is perfectly framed from this vantage point. Gorgeous.
Here is Gable and I in the Sacred Grove. It was so incredible to be there were such a significant event took place. I was most surprised at the sounds in there. For some reason I had it in my head that it was silent but the wild life was pretty loud in there.
The foliage was so dense it was breath taking. I wish I could have spent all day walking on the trails.
Our last stop in Palmyra was the Hill Cumorah. I was blown away at how close all these sites were to one another. It was just amazing, and reinforced how there was no coincidence in these events.
This was the monument that was at top of the hill. It was beautiful and we ran into some friends up there so that made it perfect.
Niagara Falls to come!

Labor Day - It's coming

Ok so I am going to post about our fabulous Labor Day trip really soon! Promise. My computer has been broken for over a month, but last night I went over to a friend’s house and through his tech savvy skills he was able to not only salvage my hard drive but fix my computer so it is working! Whew apparently have Norton Antivirus on there wasn't working and 82 viruses later my hard drive was in the clear! Hurray! So now that I am back up online and very sleep deprived (we were up till 3:30am working on the computer and I didn't go to 'bed' till 4:30) the post will be coming regularly again.

Barefooting It - Part 2

Ok it has been a while since I have gone barefoot around the track but I have been on the tread mills in minimal shoes and love it. No more shin splints, at all! It doesn't sound like much but it is hug for me I was able to jog/run a half mile straight, and this was after I had already been working out for a while. I can't even remember the last time I did that and I never felt that good doing it. My next workout will be barefoot! Look for it soon!

Our First Massage

Here we are getting ready to go, anxious for what is in store for us.
Gable in front of his the his bed. We did it in the same room, but it was like we were by ourselves because we never looked at each other or talk to each other and it was a little awkward having the massage therapists saying the same thing one right after another.
In front of the 'creepy' muscle structure chart. The massages were pretty painful for both of us at times. The first part were she worked on my head and neck was amazing. I could have the for an hour and be in heaven. When it came to my legs, OUCH!! Man it hurt pretty bad. Gable had the same issues but we felt great after, however the next day. I don't know if it is worth it to get a massage for dealing with the weakness the next day. But we had a great anniversary and were happy to go out and celebrate.